Hearing My Daddy’s Voice

hearing daddy's voice

A few months ago the California Highway Patrol got in touch with me.  I was told that the California Highway Patrol (CHP) Academy Museum in Sacramento had updated their display devoted to the Newhall Incident, in which my daddy and three other officers lost their lives (see my review of Brandishing for the background on this).  The CHP wondered if my family would like to attend the dedication, tour the museum and maybe even donate some memorabilia.

I don’t have much memorabilia from that time, so I didn’t want to give anything up.  I forwarded the email to my mom and brother.  I also wasn’t interested in attending the event.  I knew it would be very emotional and I wasn’t sure I could handle it.

A couple of weeks before the event, I got a message from my Uncle Bob (my daddy’s brother).  He had also been invited to the event and wanted to know if I would be attending.  I told him I would go if he was going.  Then my brother messaged me and said he was also attending.  He was sending an RSVP at that moment.  I asked him to add Art and I to the guest list.  I decided with that much family support, I should go.

When we arrived at the Academy the morning of the event, I found out that it was an annual memorial service for all fallen CHP officers.  We got there early so Uncle Bob took us through the exhibit before the ceremony began ( he had toured it the night before).

At the “entrance” to the exhibit, there were two pillars,  each with photos of the fallen four officers and their bios.

hearing daddy's voice
Me with my daddy’s bio

Along the walls was a timeline of the incident:

hearing daddy's voice

There was a video playing on a loop.  It explained the incident and interviewed one of the widows as well as some of the people who had arrived on the scene afterward.  My uncle leaned over and whispered, “When you hear an officer’s voice come over the radio, that’s your Daddy Skip.”  The voice yelled “shots fired” and I instantly knew.  Even though I hadn’t heard his voice since I was three years old.  I was hearing my daddy’s voice.  It was a blend of my uncle and my brother.  I wanted to sit on the bench in front of the video and listen to it over and over, just so I could hear his voice again.

I pulled myself together so we could take our seats at the memorial ceremony.  I had never been to one before.  It was very special.  The governor, lieutenant governor and attorney general were there.  There were speeches and beautiful music. The names of every fallen officer were read.  There was a 21 gun salute and CHP helicopters flew over in formation.

Around the fountain in the courtyard of the Academy, there is a brass plaque for each fallen officer.  At the end of the ceremony, each of us who had a fallen loved one was given a rose to put on that person’s plaque.  One of the four officers from the Newhall incident had no loved ones present, so we made sure his plaque got a rose as well.

hearing daddy's voice

I stood next to Nikki Frago, the Newhall widow in attendance.  Obviously it was a very emotional time for her as well.  She didn’t have any family with her, so I took her hand for a few minutes.

hearing daddy's voice

A little bit later, we walked through the exhibit again and spoke to some of the retired CHP officers.  It was a very emotional day, but I am so glad I went.  It felt good to pay tribute to my daddy and the other officers.  It was nice to know they will not be forgotten.

My brother Jay, his wife Jennie, me and Uncle Bob
My brother Jay, his wife Jennie, me and Uncle Bob

Freedom From Fear Book Review and Giveaway (ends 5/24)

Title: Freedom From Fear

Author: Pauline Creedenfront

Genre:Devotional/Bible Study

Publisher: AltWit Press

Release Date: May 8, 2016

Format: Kindle

Pages: 67 pages

About the Book:

Fear is a cage. It closes us in and keeps us from living in the freedom that we should be.

Some people get so overcome by fear that they cannot even leave their house. Phobias have become almost fashionable. We label our fears and hug them tight to us as if they are things we need to keep our security. We coddle them and keep them happy so that they don’t destroy us, and the last thing we want to do is provoke them. That powerlessness is what keeps us from accomplishing great things in our lives, whether personally or for God’s kingdom.

In Freedom from Fear, we explore the keys to our freedom through faith and obedience to God’s word. With this book, you’ll learn to put your trust in God’s character and turn to him when you’re feeling out of control.

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My Review:

Fear has been one of my biggest issues over the years (No Punishment, No Fear; The Year of No Fear; My One Word for 2016: Brave). I can definitely identify with the first line from the book, “Fear is a cage.” After multiple Bible studies, books read, and praying, I am slowly getting better at giving my fears to God and letting go.  I appreciated Pauline Creeden’s book, Freedom From Fear, for its fresh perspective.

Every chapter is interspersed with Bible verses and Bible stories that relate to specific types of fear:

  • Fear of Losing Control
  • Fear of Being Alone
  • Fear of Uncertainty

In addition, Creeden offers tips on what the reader can do to help overcome fear, why the tips work and how to put each one into action.  For example:

The first step to overcoming fear in the face of impossible circumstances is to realize these feelings inside of yourself. It’s not just self-doubt, but also fear of the unknown. Your first step is to recognize the voice of fear when you hear it. Then do your best not to listen to it.

One of the biggest takeaways for me is the realization that it’s okay to be afraid and to question things.  That fear is not a sin.  That the problem comes when we don’t talk to God (pray) about our situation and our feelings.

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

2 Timothy 1:7

I highly recommend this devotional for any Christian who is struggling with fear or anxiety issues. It’s empowering and comforting at the same time.

I received a complimentary copy of this book for the purpose of review.  All opinions are 100% my own.

About the Author:

Pauline Creeden is a horse trainPauline Creedener from Virginia, but writing is her therapy. In her fiction, she creates worlds that are both familiar and strange, often pulling the veil between dimensions. She becomes the main character in each of her stories, and because she has ADD, she will get bored if she pretends to be one person for too long.


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